I didn't gain any weight. Seriously. I did my scale ritual, and the magical number was there. So here I sit, eating chicken, beans and sauerkraut. And today my goal is to try and not have a crack latte. It is a snow day, which means I am housebound with the kiddies anyway. I could sneak away under the guise that we need ice cream. My eldest wouldn't mind babysitting for 20 minutes or so whilst I head out in icy sheets of snow on treacherous roads to get them ice cream, right? And a little slip into the Starbucks drive-thru and tah-dah! Chai latte!!!!
It is only 9:30, and already I have self-sabotaged. I need an intervention.
My other goal this week, if there is such a thing as goals in my life, is to lose another 5 pounds. I tend to think of my weight not so much in terms of pounds, but as in time capsules. Let me explain. When I was in grade 6, I weighed 125 pounds. I was 5'2". In grade 7, I weighed 130 pounds, and I was 5'8". I have weights memorized from high school; when I was modeling; when I moved to Toronto; when I moved back to Ottawa; when I went on my first vacation; when I got married; when I got pregnant; when I gave birth; and, well, you get the picture. For all the major events in my life, I can give you my exact weight. So, when I think of a weight that I want to be at, I think of a period of my life and what was going on. My current weight? This is my after babies, but starting to feel skinnier weight. I would say Christmas 2006. I don't want to be back in high school, or even remotely close to my modeling weight. But as I felt very pretty on my wedding day, that is my goal weight. Even though I can remember feeling fat on our honeymoon, honestly....that is now my goal weight. Goals are not simple for me. But hey, whatever works, right?
It is only 9:30, and already I have self-sabotaged. I need an intervention.
My other goal this week, if there is such a thing as goals in my life, is to lose another 5 pounds. I tend to think of my weight not so much in terms of pounds, but as in time capsules. Let me explain. When I was in grade 6, I weighed 125 pounds. I was 5'2". In grade 7, I weighed 130 pounds, and I was 5'8". I have weights memorized from high school; when I was modeling; when I moved to Toronto; when I moved back to Ottawa; when I went on my first vacation; when I got married; when I got pregnant; when I gave birth; and, well, you get the picture. For all the major events in my life, I can give you my exact weight. So, when I think of a weight that I want to be at, I think of a period of my life and what was going on. My current weight? This is my after babies, but starting to feel skinnier weight. I would say Christmas 2006. I don't want to be back in high school, or even remotely close to my modeling weight. But as I felt very pretty on my wedding day, that is my goal weight. Even though I can remember feeling fat on our honeymoon, honestly....that is now my goal weight. Goals are not simple for me. But hey, whatever works, right?
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