Venti chai latte for lunch again, and a second one this afternoon ('cause their half price dontcha know...I love a bargain!!). But I will survive this little train wreck, as we all survive little train wrecks in our lives. I don't feel defeatist; I don't feel like I can't do this diet; I slipped.....like the true chai-aholic I am.
Do they have ten step programs for people addicted to sugar? Can I get a sponsor? Someone I can call that can talk me down as I sit for 20 minutes at the Starbucks drive-thru? Beyond the nagging headache I get when there is no caffeine coursing thru my veins; I realize that there is a real psychological addiction at work here. I look forward to the banter at the drive-thru window; I feel empowered walking around with my pop culture prize cup. It is my daily break, the thing I do for me, it is how I feel like I am relaxing. It is all horse shit, really. I need to find another vice. Someone put me on another train.
Dinner will be lemon chicken with salsa and beans. Choo choo!
Do they have ten step programs for people addicted to sugar? Can I get a sponsor? Someone I can call that can talk me down as I sit for 20 minutes at the Starbucks drive-thru? Beyond the nagging headache I get when there is no caffeine coursing thru my veins; I realize that there is a real psychological addiction at work here. I look forward to the banter at the drive-thru window; I feel empowered walking around with my pop culture prize cup. It is my daily break, the thing I do for me, it is how I feel like I am relaxing. It is all horse shit, really. I need to find another vice. Someone put me on another train.
Dinner will be lemon chicken with salsa and beans. Choo choo!
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